The end of the year included a lot of travel, family, friends. It was great seeing people, celebrating, remembering, but also incredibly exhausting, and when me and the family were back home, a cycle of colds, virus’s and tough struggles ensued. Family colds with two kids are no joke. However, here we are in Feb already, and it’s time to bounce back. The years goals are set, some new routines are in place for health, productivity, and socializing…and I am once again feeling positive about the way forward. I’ve even setup a structure to get back to some regular blogging by making the method I write simply filling out a form, hence the structure.

Once again, I learned not to have too much expectation from December and January in terms of my own goals, they should be reserved for family, and rest from the inevitable travel and sickness. I learned to be more aware of others. I learned I am potentially burnt out, not from work necessarily, but from life, and that’s okay. I am okay, but I need to cultivate an awareness of how “spent” I am, and the impact on others, which is mostly that I do not give freely of my attention, spirit, time…myself, very readily.

Structuring 2020 goals in terms of mostly habits and recurring sequences. Reminding myself I am okay, it’s okay not to be perfect. Continuing to make sure I get a solid friendship hangout where “life” in a more than pleasantries way happens, which is something I need to generate myself to do, it’s not something I do naturally.

In direct opposite with “I am okay” … is…get it all done, do it all. I don’t think many other systemic things with what didn’t work in the last couple months. It’s been mostly survival from sickness and life overwhelm, which of course doesn’t work either.

Tiller is failing me [actually it’s probably Google Sheets], unsure on ITA YTD, but I believe it’s on target, shooting for about $1,667 per month in a small target year with having a new born and two kiddos now to figure out into the life routines.