Sleep Killing

going to sleep early is so urgently critically, absolutely important and l i f e - c r i t i c a l, but … it’s the first thing to go out the window when it’s the best medicine. oh human weakness. i kill sleep, hours of sleep, i’m a sleep killer. i take actions that...

Why, why, why

why why why do i try to do everything, and then let the failure of not getting it all done, make me apathetic to life, causing loss of priority or focus, causing unhappiness, when it’s all a made up lie! i made up the “everything” and yet it controls me, when...

Frustrated Writing

Writing content is difficult for me, each time I attempt to put out posts, I get bogged down by everything I want to include, or even just the thought of everything I want to include, so I often end up with a draft, and nothing more. I wish, desperately, I had more...

How to be in an Epic

Frodo could not be a hero unless he was born into a story with many chapters already played out before his own. His moment derives its weight and urgency from the moments [and people] that have come before. John Eldredge. Epic: The Story God Is Telling …so do my...

Joyless Obligatory Productivity

today as work was pushed late due to snow, i lied in bed thinking about how controlled i am by the things i think i have to do.i have zero zen right now. i am utterly under the control of a sense obligation to be productive. obligation to who/what is a great question,...